are so the many!!


i am so distracted. when i try to do work, it either colleagues, wanting to play games, checking twitter, reading online articles, checking msn, bla bla bla..



ARGH..




FOCUS girl!

now as im writing this blog post, meow should be busy doing up scores for us ba. Xin ku ni le oh.. because im not as clever or talented, i dun seem to be of much use around.


before i start to talk alot of rubbish, lets divert.


and so, ahtu began on her adventures around the tuis-land and while she was travelling, she saw these 2 punks who were being quite oblivious to their environment. sitting down and pretending not to see an old lady standing, they happily(and so i thought) chat and listen to their music. ahtu was already feeling quite furious, perhaps this emotion is in relative to the 'dang shi ren', and also because of ahtu's job, she told the punks to get up and let the lady sit. courageous ahtu then alighted from her transportation. Although it seemed a brave move, not everyone is willing to do that and during this process ahtu felt this adrenaline(or shiver) running thru her. its her first time after all!


the next day, ahtu went to pick up her borrowed musical instrument from a friend she met on the road. this story came about from a few days back. she was just playing music and someone came and say that he plays the same instrument too! so because the one ahtu was playing is already a lil cranky, ahtu wants to borrow his instrument. and its an ok immediately. how nice! so ahtu borrowed the instrument and also got to know a new friend. and coincidentally, this friend happen to be in the same committee as ahtu! helping out for the musical next year and is supposedly her YMD counterpart! oh my oh my.. this is too qiao already. furthermore, he seems to be a good friend of ahtu's bro-in-law. but just one thing.. ahtu thinks he might be a lil too old.. LOL! just jokking..


and so. after that, ahtu quickly hopped home. took another intrument and went out again. she will be going to somebody's house to practice and play music again! to cover lost time, she jumped into a cab and about few km away, the driver said "i didnt start the meter, just realised it." haha. :X oops but ahtu saved a few cents!




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i think its pretty tiring to be writing in a 3rd person's perspective. brain feels quite tired. maybe also due to the running about for the whole day. tml will be another whole day. and so, i need to go stick my key pads that dropped out of the saxophone. ja neh. :P

梁静茹说

不想难为你
又不想放弃你
决定告诉你
对不起对不起我爱你





可是郭靜说




爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起


so.. 到底该说还是不该说?

hi blog! and visitors who still check this web-covered place once in a while.. :D



i m busy with twitter now.. thats why blogging has become a 2nd priority.. recently i've become very hardworking at work oh.. maybe its because of the pending workload? maybe also because im feeling some threat.. :S



nevertheless, i'm really trying to resolve all the problems step by step. be it solving from the root or jus using a temporary method to cover up, at least things are progressing.. well, this time it must go live ASAP.



and so, this year is coming to an end.. i cant say its a VERY GOOD or VERY BAD year.. more like a 'switch over' period for me.. switching of identities u might say.. well, kind of.. i've been quite slack and dead.. then i thought of the 'me' few years ago and i realised time cannot turn back and i cant go back to how i was.. because things happen for a reason, all the experiences i had open a new kind of character in me and i should continue and become a great human being.. the kind i would like myself to be.


and so, i didnt chant to go back to the ME i was in SD but rather to not be affected by things that happened in the past, to have the courage and ability to control certain things, to not let myself be the stumbling block to the growth of my YWDs and the projects that i'm working on.


still searching and seeking and i guess life is like this.. there might be no end but will one continue to seek or are you satisfied with what you have? it is so easy to fall into the path laid by the 3 poison (greed, anger, stupidity) but weiling shared with me the answer GD gave her to "how to remain pure faith" was: It is difficult to remain pure in heart in this evil age with so many desires but we should be like the lotus flower that blooms in the muddy swamp.


recently was quite troubled with'ka-chng' problem as well as plusplus problem.. although i was quite frustrated.. i also tried to reflect and think.. well, yes i am young and ignorant. maybe its jus stubboness. ya i am very stubbon. and this magical force will increase if opposing force increase. like they always say to the contestants in 'xing guang' during PK show, one must 遇强则强.



and thank you my friends, who sent me messages and presents(all rabbity..) and your company. im not alone. you too. :D



and, oh. i wonder if i've high blood. haha.. strange.

我的客气是因为想要学习不是因为我在怕你
你推给我的事情 都在训练我的功力
我不还击是因为喜欢和平不是因为不够聪明
你丢给我的情绪 都在培养我的耐性

*[Oh 你怎么笨到不懂没有人 会是傻瓜 Woo
拿出本事 闭上嘴巴 Woo
别装好心 又乱放话 Yeah
眼睛很瞎 但头很大
我已经受够了你自以为是老大
受够了你太酸太假
你想看我爆炸 就来吧]

我的尊敬是因为你的年龄不是因为你的能力
又说以前你多行 打个呵欠在我心里
我的热血是因为很多憧景不是因为冲动而已
你说成败是天意 我说态度决定命运

Repeat *

没有时间再听无聊的人废话
没有时间再被脑残的人阻挡
菜鸟未必菜 我就超有想法
世界天天在变化 每天都有黑马

Repeat *




this song is from one of xing guang san shao -- pan yu wen's new album. the lyrics is quite interesting, with the upbeat melody..

although it sounds like someone commenting on their senior at work, the bold words seem more like a dialogue i will say to myself.. :S anw, enjoy!

this is my first time listening to the entire album from eason. and this is after watching xing guang.. :D


this is a very interesting album. particularly this song, bringing to you 谋情害命:


要害 请你害我
要骗 一定要骗我
你在 我茶里 放什么
你在 我床前 拿冰锄 要干什么
你在 我书房 找什么
你在 我车底 装上的 又是什么
*[随你 陷害我 虐待
我 掏空我 榨干我
其实我 很清楚 不过没说
只要 答应我 你对我 无论做什么
绝不在 他身上做
请害苦我 请害惨我
你放过我 日子怎么过]

你都 没告诉我
你在 我胸口 涂什么
你在 我浴室 放烤箱 又为什么
你在 我电脑 看什么
你在 我花园 挖的洞 要埋什么

Repeat *
只要 答应我 你对我 无论做过什么

别以为我 真的没想过
受尽折磨 到底为什么
我就等你 习惯了害我 一个
看看那天 你和我
谁人没有 谁不可
形势逆转 你就知道 错

请害苦我 (我的情
我的命 你要什么)
请害惨我 (全世界 只
有你 能对我 无恶不作)
别放过我 (尽管说 我
的情 我的命 你要什么)
你可听过 (不过你
要小心 要还我)
有一首歌 叫「害我
变成什么… 爱我」
现在我就为你 做



if you haven heard of the song before, just by reading this you should be able to see that these are feelings of a sadist. XD then the music. how do i describe it? it began with a style like rhapsody in blue, then a lil jazzy, then the instrumentation is also very interesting.. the flute part sound just like Nestor's style. and the song ended with a BURP. (yes a real BURP.)


to a first time listener of eason's song(other than my memories of those pop songs he sung), this album is very interesting! :D

想太多




"是我想太多 我也這樣說
這是唯一能安慰我的理由"



想太多了。。。 就会太烦恼！！！



太烦恼




"我烦恼太聪明并不好
烦恼太愚蠢更不好
烦恼谁都不明了
烦恼烦恼太烦恼的苦恼"






today is a familiar face day.. saw geraldine eating at the coffeeshop opp my sch.
then uncle phillip(poh) at HG mall
and another auntie.. (is she a WD?)


*said hi to this auntie outside HG mall's NTUC. but i cant recall who is she.. maybe she also dunno who i am.. XD this is bad..




so..




who is she?