latter day of the law

had a marvelous weekend.. started with a great performance tgt w weiyi for Fri Rend.. though we didnt sing well but i was quite happy.. and also made a new friend from geylang zone.. they had their zone shirt sia.. XD

sat met up w my ywd fren.. she was previously my mbr and now she's a leader herself, doin well in all aspects.. really happy tt my 'member' could grow and encourage so many others..
then attended d1's zadankai.. they had so many youths.. and xc also brought her frens and aunt.. but i guess we werent careful enough with the way of hospitality then sort of 'scared' them off le ba.. hmmm.. what can i do? everything seems so messy..

sun was orch prac.. i was late!! argh~~ super tired.. and hasnt been sleepin well these few days.. perhaps its the weather.. so many things has been on my mind.. and honestly speaking, my mood hasnt been good.. but after sunday, somehow i managed to pull on and last for one whole day.. had our chpt's revision for the study mtg then went to the IT fair and john little sale w my ywds and bought a HD.. but i was so tired after that.OMG~ then went for dmk for one of our MD ldr.. jia you oh!! we'll all be supporting you.. you still have your mission.. be strong and achieve victories that will encourage the chapter and your family as well.

the series of study mtg refreshed my memory again.. i had chucked what i've learnt all into the storeroom and it was locked up.. now slowly slowly, i seem to remember bits n pieces of all my struggles in my SD days, my HGS days.. i wan to remember, i mus remember.. so that i can advance and move on with even joyful hope, stronger determination and greater courage.
jus found out indeed a fellow musician left our group.. it was also a thought that i had maybe, jus last yr? i dunno what's her reason but please let her continue to advance in faith and be such a shining leader of kosen-rufu. heartache.

i jus watched the news on tv on sat.. and was jus so shocked that the world was suddenly so messed up again.. indeed the latter day of the law.. but what can we do? because we're not citizens of tt country nor political figures or such, what can we do to help those who're suffering? and to see tt here in lion city, pple are living so comfortably.. watching news on tv is like another movie to them, totally unfeeling.. is this the way we are gg to live our future? and i wonder who is gg to shoulder the country's future..
watched a sensei's video recently.. sensei went to this particular country which i cant rem which one and he viewed an exhibition about the holocasts and great evil of the nazi then. i breifly rem the words he said in his interview. "after viewing the exhibition, i was deeply shaken(moved). but a strong feeling i had was determination." i had to think again to understand sensei's words then. his determination had led him so far.. what abt me? it was always the workings of my mind that i couldnt achieve the things i wanted.. when am i gg to be strong? when am i gg to stand alone?

i am considered a 'senior ldr' alrdy.. next yr's may 3rd wud be my 1 yr anniv of chpt ldrship.. OMG~~~ yet i am like not doin anything.. i am so free!!! oh no.. something is definitely wrong with me.. i will not feel alone.. i will unite people's heart. i need to work harder.. moto moto~!!






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