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muahahahha..better strive to my utmost before my days are up.. wewont know what will happen to us at any moment.. so lets livesuch that there will be no regrets!

gotta take my laptop for repair next month.. which means i'm gonna be broke again.. and also the need to buy a new HD and a new thumbdrive.. :S this is the troublesome part of being a MIT person.. sighs..

after talkin to hl the other time, i've been thinkin what is my mission, what shld i pursue.. is what i've been persisting on correct? even friends say tt this will be a career "with bright prospect but no future".

feelin very tired recently.. SLEEP soooooooooo much.. think something is wrong w me somewhere.. physically not mentally hor..

listenin to 933 now.. this song from cao ge sounds like the song for Mac's breakfast.. lols!

ranting on and on it seems.. let me stop creating negative thoughts and negative karma.. :P


so i seek from sensei.. again.:

Even places that have been shrouded in darkness for billions of years can be illuminated. Even a stone from the bottom of a river can be used to produce fire. Our present sufferings, no matter how dark, have certainly not continued for billions of years-nor will they linger forever. The sun will definitely rise. In fact, its ascent has already begun.


AND HE CONTINUES..


Anyone can hit a wall. The anguish felt then is proof of one's desire to move forward. But all is for naught if you falter at that moment. Action-that is the key to breaking through an impasse.


AND HE CONTINUES....


There is a saying that the earth upon which we fall is the same ground which enables us to push ourselves up again. There's another which maintains that barley grows better after it has been trampled on. Human relationships are sometimes painful, but there is no such pain from which we cannot recover. It is up to us to decide to live a life free from self-doubt and despair in spite of our failures. Indeed, it is during our most humbling moments that we should show greatest poise and grace. Then the dignity of our lives will truly shine.


do you feel the same as me now? that we are all irreplaceable, capable, unique individuals!



-- jus a note to add after readin meow's blog.. i'm also not a fighter.. in terms of relationship.. and also maybe in this soka family, i have listened so many guidances till i become 'bo chup' and juz 'let things come as it is..'? unlike other young girls and teenagers, i have 'sacrificed' my time and everything to contribute to kosen-rufu.. instead of being able to go out with friends, have a good time outside, or stay at home to watch tv, etc.. maybe as my zone says, it is the good fortune that i have such strict parents who disallow me from going out unnecessarily, till wee hours.. thus i made myself do things that i deem useful, that i enjoyed doing ba.. but still, i guess ther's still lots of things that need to be done by me, i know. :) --