been looking like a goldfish.. dunno what's wrong with me.. been feeling the 'burden' of swollen eyes when i already have very small gap to view the world.. :S




network at workplace is very unstable.. so much so that its getting on my nerves very soon if it doesnt stabilise.. RAWR. 'YOU BETTER BE GOOD OR.. OR.. OR..'


see, i cant do anything.. jus be angry and kill all my happy cells. :(






and then, i have been thinkin.. if one is given a choice to customise the amt of talent we could be born with, will i want to be a smart but innocence-minded or dumb but high EQ person?


haha.. its a tough choice man.. because it seems that im low on either side.. this makes things so tough.. really.. i see the existence of talent no matter how much i do not want to admit. certain things, its really fine to not be good at it.. but other things, u cant polish it even though you are very hardworking.. you can only learn by going through it.


sounds a bit pessimistic? maybe the society has successfully made me negative by providing so many opportunities to.




what else can you do when something you wish to do so much seems to be something that the other party does not want you to do?


for now, i can only chant.. i will continue until i know how to proceed on.. :D





像打不死的蟑螂就是我的精神！