my XC flew to UK yesterday.. went to the airport to send her off and i brought along a CD compilation of songs and a letter with few words.. my potential is leavin to seek her dreams and i've nothing to make her stay because if it was me, i would want to be able to seek and fulfil my dreams, my mission.. truly admired her for her courage because its a very difficult time now esp. in the west.. somehow like 去西取经 hor.. despite being her 'leader', i learnt many things and am always encouraged by her passion and enthusiasm.. watched "败犬" and the male lead said something like "与其埋怨事情的不足，倒不如想想如何让以后不再发生同样的事" kinda stuffs.. this is applicable in all aspects of our life and it only allow me to confirm once again that what im doing is correct.

had a very good but short dialogue w my zone at the airport. already at the beginning i knew she was someone that i can follow... someone practising correctly and a true disciple of sensei. maybe along the road it was too tough and she was the only one who hung on. but because of her determination, things are starting to change. of cuz i have to get going as well! sensei dun have much time to wait for me.

2 friends jus got attached.. and i wonder.. im in no stand to judge for now because i've also failed in my own past relationship.. they seem unsure of this relationship, like how i was.. and like my own child, i would want to protect them from the pain and hurt they might get down the road but at the same time, we also know that we will only become a better person, gain life's experience after overcoming it.. no matter what, i'll cont to send daimoku to them for their happiness.. 她们不要我了！when thinkin abt this in the morning, "我很丑，可是我很温柔~~" flew across my head.. hahahhaha..

from 爱就tgt: "为什么我还是一个人？" i always wonder.. partly because im lonely? or isit because i feel inferior that 'nobody wans me'.. haha.. im also not sure.. but having a bf/gf should be built on the friendship and trust when the two got to know one another and not just solely on emotions ba..if not very quickly, will end up like me. XD and it is definitely not a sign of power or authority ba.. strange that i have this kind of thinking.

sometimes i wished "能不能就让一切尽在不言中". because im not still not someone who is able to express myself correctly.. like the girl in this particular anime, i have a different view from the signal i give people. and the conclusion is i still dunno how.. the tin-man in 'WOO'.. it is good that i dun have courage. because with a temper like mine i dunno what i will end up doin when i was still much younger(although i still very young now). :D

i had the 'de ja vu' feeling ytd with weiyi again.. and i really wonder which is reality.. if i had this power to predict the future, which portion that i predicted will come true? hahaha.. this doesnt really matter thats why i m striving hard to see the result i want.. work harder, harder, harder!