am back from my planning! skipped prac today, with the rest of them. only managed to prac for an hour of IR cuz came down after the -supposedly-zone-ywd-marathon-dmk-a

disappointed by the turnout. but i dunno whether am i suppose to be angry with the rest for not informing, replyin to our emails, giving excuses about their job nature OR am i the one at fault for not getting my ywds involved?

RAWR~! so i chanted 2 hrs, the first hour of 'communicating with the gohonzon about myself, my challenges, the wall that i've built and so on.. the second hr, i was more 'awake' cuz got pple join me alrdy mah.. so i told myself that i muz set strong prayers in order to change things..

"prac" was good today. prob due to the fact that i was alone and wasnt scared of anyone hearin my playing. i practised my scales, my fingerings, my long notes, chromatic and thirds. library-cum-storeroom is still messy.. after bringing the few cartons of scores to HQ.. sighs.. i wonder y am i tasked with so many things.. isit because i dunno how to reject or to delegate?

planning was good today.. because i spoke alot.. and i sort of discover their.. "loophole"? so we had our planning, and i know abit more about my MD.. i.e. he has 2 sons and a daughter.. :))

so thats my day in all.. feeling so tired.. and overwhelm about the things happening and those that i've to give my attention to, as well as my serious case of memory failure and 'toot-ness'.. sigh.. i giving a serious though to my health man.. and, my computer grew ants!! eek!! i wonder wher they come from.. and the lappie is so hot.. they like hot environment? hmm.. :P is ther such a thing as ant-icide? i want!