hmmm.. orch prac today.. think all the wind player will agree its a killer prac today..


my wrist almost turn crippled.. luckily it didnt.. and didnt really have to pack cuz the rest action very fast.. then i was juz too engrossed keepin my instrument..


only 1 word : tired



hai.. dunno what else i can do le.. although it appears as if i am doing alot.. but in fact i really dunno wad i can do le.. i can only chant and chant..


sometimes i feel so tired already.. will i turn away when i face my karma? will i be able to lean on my comrades? will i be able to remember gohonzon and sensei? i'm really scared..


7 more days to our concert.. not counting the actual day itself.. will she come? will i be able to see her sitting there after the concert? weiyi ni hui lai ma? ni hui wei le wo er zhan qi lai mah?


bu yao xiang le..


anw, my prayers answered!! i managed to get 6 tickets! or maybe more if there is.. haha.. didnt know i so popular~~ :P


meow leng.. troubling over her.. hai.. wad happened? i also dunno.. isit because i didnt try hard enough to reach out to my mbrs? or isit because i didnt chant hard enough that i muz reach their lives?



though orch prac seems to be a good one, apparently after that it only trigger more thoughts within me.. jia you ba! thinkin is of no use.. muz put into action!!