YOYO!!


today is 3.16, kosen-rufu day!! i think every day shld be kosen-rufu day but this year, it is more memorable, more significant for me ba..

1. involvement in making of souvenir under HG/SK's *odyessey group
2. involvement as a YWD instead of SD
3. to challenge and fight on a deeper level as compared to previous "faith like fire" attitude
4. involvement as SNCO player and playing in the hall like Soka Glorious Winds!!
5. setting thorough targets and resolutions for myself and not running or procrastinating about it


hmmm.. i think enough le ba.. frankly speaking, my faith may not be as gung-ho compared to 3-4 years ago.. like the balloon 'lao-hong' liao.. but the gap between my lowest and highest life condition is also not so great, so its a good thing! so i always tell myself to try to advance forward, try to chant abit more when possible, try to never take things for granted..


sat was at TBSC to do welcoming.. reached like more than 1/2 hr late cuz of the bus! next time shall not take the bus le.. but lucky i nv reach so early.. in the end also not much things to do as the rest were eating and occupied with their own stuff while i feel like a wandering soul.. hahaha.. the fun started when we the welcoming group practised the cheer and song and all waiting for the Asia delegates to come.. yoohoo~~ when i see the souvenir we were giving them, my heart fell half-way.. cuz it didnt look how i imagined it to be.. hahaha.. the iron-on had a transparent background, instead of a white one which make the words difficult to read on dark cloths.. then the DVD cover.. did look as nice as i tot it to be also... =(( am i realy so lousy?? haha.. i better stick to digital design i guess.. print materials always looked different from the one i saw on my computer screen.. :S and i dunno how to resolve that..


when the delegates come, i was super high de lor.. but quite saddening to see tt we weren't tgt in shouting the 'huan-yin, huan-yin'.. but its ok.. haha.. then watched vid on sensei's 3 visit and later heard sharing on the pioneer days of fighting for THAT issue..


during the refreshment break for the delegates, ZR told me something that i did not have time to react to.. and lucky i didnt react.. i didnt know how to react.. i really dunno.. at this point of time, what is the best decision to make? i juz swollowed everything into myself.. zhi nen bu ting de tan qi..


by the end of everything, me and tricia were half dead.. and she was definitely feelin more tired than me.. have to bake cookies, bake brownies, come early to prepare, plan and everything else.. *applause to her!!*


cabbed down to HQ and was qute shocked to realise that we were sitting on the floor and chairs were arranged like the HQ ldrs mtg in japan.. hahahha.. quite cool.. but quite weird.. didnt really play well.. towards the end of chun xia qiu dong i was completely lost and juz managed to catch the last note and the fermata.. hahaa.. maddness.. felt so bad that the audience thought we did a good job but only we ourselves know la hah.. :P


sat for a looooooooooooooooooooong time cuz there were speeches and messages given out during the meeting.. absorbed a lil and leaked a lil as well.. hahaha.. the feeling of sitting among the audience and sitting as a performer at the side juz feels different for me ba.. it was a rather rush mtg cuz we had to get all the reps to share bout their campaigns and resolutions and present cultural items as well.. when our GD from SG was sharing, i was thinkin about sensei.. thinkin about how sensei stood up each time without fail, to answer to his mentor so sincerely, so resolutely.. i asked sensei what must i do? what can i do? to enable my comrade to stand up once again..


glad that i am able to encourage someone..because it seems like ages when someone will respond to my call, respond to my encouragement with thanks and great sincerity.. hahaha.. maybe i'm not good enough. :P so i will try my best! and i received a daisy!! thank you jinsi, my 101th mistress.. though lousy performance but at least i got flower leh.. bleah! hahaha..


'you guai shou, you guai shou, you guai shou, can zhu wo.. '
haiyo.. irritating.. got to escaped like criminal.. haha.. but lucky lucky.. :P and junwen's acting all weird.. hahahaa.. laugh until i wanna pengz le.. and i couldnt answer the question about THAT issue.. juz got stucked.. or maybe i juz accept whatever is said.. hmmm.. time to reflect and read more.. =)


the event at Expo today was good! though initially it was quite scary.. there was so many pple at Expo!! and it juz sent the chills down me.. but i kept chanting in my heart.. hahaha.. sounds like a scaredy cat hor.. :S and my ywd almost fly my aeroplane!! lucky i managed to persuade, or force them to come down.. sincerly pray that all these precious treasures of my district will definitely grow into capable and outstanding individuals and shoulder kosen-rufu for the next 50 years and on!

thou i had to stand throughout, but seeing the number of people, it was actually a relief.. hahha.. like stepped on lemon for 3-4 hours lor!! hai.. tired tired.. lets always remember this joyous occasion wher we pledge to give our best for our mentor as our guiding star and to spread this humanistic teaching together with our eternal comrades.. remember! you are not alone!!