its sad.. so sad.. its a sad sad situation.. and its getting more and more absurd..


此起彼伏的心情。。。


its was a very sad weekend for me!! on fri, i lost all the data in my thumbdrive.. ='( all the documents needed for my work in now GONE!!


hai.. tried to retrieve them with all the softwares i can find but either they were not tt good, limit the files by file size due to the fact its a DEMO version, or after they found all my files, i was not able to save the files because it is a DEMO version.. argh.. so tao yan!!!


then sat was orch again.. actually met up w SS before tt to get him to fill the form.. then he acc. me to get presents for a friends' bdae.. then we sat at sitabak to drink kopi~~~ we talked about few things.. then i realised tt i was late!! rushed down to harbourfront to meet zx and wz to go down to the bdae celeb tgt..


first time takin the monorail into sentosa.. it was quite amazing that the land of IR is really huge and they dug like 3-4 storeys deep underground.. sigh.. feelin quite sad regarding this development to our lil island..


took the tram in.. though it was drizzling, it was quite nice to sit and enjoy the scenery.. makes my mood good!! it wasnt hard to find our way in.. maybe cuz we got a good guide ba... hahahahaa.. wah.. tt place quite ma fan.. go in/out also muz tap card de.. na really do anything there. haha.. cuz i shy mah.. meet new pple.. then they say wanna start fire le.. so i went to play pool instead.. and guess wad? i didnt get to play but end up teachin a bunch of kids how to play.. not tt i'm pro.. but juz to entertain them lor.. hahaa..
found tt time was almost 6pm and i need to go off to scc le.. who knoes, my friend went out of chalet to buy charcole!!! then i call her saying how ar, lucky her mom got the pass out.. so we went up to the rooms and guess wad? the room door is closed!!! meaning i cant get my bag.. so even if i can get out of the chalet also no use.. then nvm lor.. no choice rite?
and the dumber thing happens.. i realised tt when we booked the pool table, we were given the balls by the recept, and now we need to return rght? means we need to take the balls out, which means,.. we need to insert coins!! and the stupid thing was, before the game, we already inserted coins.. arh... yuan wang ar.. we bai bai let them earn $1 extra.. yeeks!! and juz as we were waiting for 50C coins in order to get back our ic, a lady wans to book the table also! then i tot like oh ok.. use lor.. but rem tt we got to get back the ic.. so my friends went abt lookin for coins to get the balls out, then get back our ic, so the next person can use the table.. ahahha.. yi chang bai wu long..

finally got my stuffs from the room then i happily say bye to my friend and walk out.. who knows? i need the pass!! hai... y so blur de me.. and finally got out of the place, and i wanted to take the tram to the main station then got to take to harbourfront then maybe i chiong cab down.. but the tram was full and i couldnt get up!! so i walked back to the station then i saw cabs!! hesitating whether to take cab or take the monorail.. i think i looked quite stupid walkin to and fro.. in the end, i board the cab.. cuz its already like 700pm!!

my cab fare amted to $21.60!! so ex.. even more so when i take cab from my hse to scc.. :((( faster chiong to soak my reeds, then chiong to set up, then chiong to level 2 for wind sectionals and i realised that they ended alrdy.. =((( nevermind, i join the combined then.. combined was quite ok.. or rather, no improvement vs no challenge.. lucky nv play nutcraker.. and still, the one i know how to play, i know how.. the one i dunno, still dunno how. haha.. haven recover from my rushing to and fro.. i'm juz such a kan-chiong person ba..

feelin sad.. tremdously sad.. dun ask me why, cuz i also dunno why.. think i'm abit mad le.. :P anw, dreamin alot these few days.. i mean in the night when i sleep la.. haha.. and wad i dream actually happened!! not all events, but ya.. :) slept till 1pm on sunday.. ate then slack and went out w my parents.. i'm prob the one who can spend the most time w them with my 2 sis married and the other one.. hai.. still praying hard towards my prayer..

hai.. so many troubles and problems in my brain.. shldnt think so much now.. i need to chant!! but i lack the motivation.. jia you ba!! i think to change.. sometimes i feel i really am not like wad i am.. sometimes i am(in a positive way) because i wan to encourage a person.. sometimes i am(in a negative way) juz acting abnormal.. perhaps.. humans are like that de ba.. but i need to stabalise my condition.. hahahaa.. no matter wad, i muz take in any setbacks and continue advancing forward! i know gohonzon is always inside me and i muz not let my mentor down!!

Gambarimatsu~!! ^^