i'm not strong enough.was supposed to visit my fren, fren's mom rather.. she juz went thru an op.. quite major as she had to remove her womb..

and both me and za tot it was my fren who was hospitalised.. cuz the msg tt my fren sent was "hey, uma's went to op..." and tts y we all got a shocked.. cuz i know tt she's still workin, gg for courses how come suddenly go op? so we met up and wanted to buy stuffs and all for her, later then we realised it was my fren who forgot the word "mom" and thus got us all worried and stuff.. geez!

yup.. in the end we only managed to get a card for our fren.. cuz visiting hrs was over and my fren had to go down to lil india..

bla bla bla..

aft which i miraculously called on my 'gor' to ask him for kopi-kai.. maybe too long nv see him le ba.. needed encouragement ba.. and he told me ther'll be a wake tonight at boon lay.. so i say ok lor, i go w u.. and i knew who was the wake for already.. but juz tot go and support lor..

and i went ther, we sort of went the wrong way and walked a long way, even had to ask a taxi driver and a couple for directions.. anw, ther was alot of pple.. and the daimoku was very strong.. when i tot of a lil boy who juz not able to enjoy his youth, so many things tt he would have liked to do, i was juz veri saddened.. so emo hor.. so aft tt i asked my gor how do u explain to the parents or even convince ourselves tt this Mystic Law is correct? after the boy chant, we chant why did he still pass away? i think at tt point of time i just had too many doubts..

he showed me the HR where toda sensei explained bout the death of a 18 yr old boy.. it is indeed a transformation of his negative karma in this lifetime. beingable to chant daimoku in this lifetime, without havin to go thru the sufferings of sickness, old age.. and it is indeed because of his illness/karma/mission tt has brought the whole family tgt.. i heard his mom is very strong now. really wud like to encourage and support the parents.. they muz have been devastated.. but i'm sure they realised it.. everything happens for a reason.. gor said.. it is precisely so we muz work even harder for kosen-rufu.. yes.. i muz.. i must be strong..

saw weilin, my HDPS sell drinks de auntie(yes, she's also a mbr!!), and auntie diana.. when i saw her, she was crying.. sob sob.. when i see her, my try-so-hard-to-hide-tears also fell down.. she share w me tt because of some incident, she got to look aft this lil boy.. and this boy say "you promise to cook me spagetti" so aunt diana cook spagetti treat him eat.. then he say tt he like sushi but aunt diana did not have the chance to make sushi for him to eat.. so drama hor.. i keep askin myself tt he mus have alot of things he would like to do, like to accomplished, and now he does not have the chance to do so..

went to look at him for the first and last time.. the coffin did not have those glass panel wher u can see the coffin.. and it was a small coffin, for a small boy.. tt made me cry even more.. dunno why.. not strong enough ba..

his name is Ngim Kiat, 严杰.. pls really chant for him to transform his karma in this lifetime and have the great good fortune to be reborn in a family with gohonzon to fulfill his mission for kosen-rufu. this boy may be young in age, but his strong and pure spirits can encourage many many people he encounter, including me..

this is really the good fortune, warmth of the soka family.. comin together even though we many not know each other..

weili will be strong! pls do!