haiyo.. super irritated with myself.. haha.. siao! anyway, somethings happen and i feel so dumb because i think i am la.. = anyway, went home w chris and yiheng on sat and was sharing w chris.. cuz he say i always like "hi, how are you" smiley smiley one.. and to him, pple who smile more are in fact pple who have more problems tt they keep in their heart.. so i was tellin him, ya.. true.. because nobody can be always in the high life state forever right? everyone has their ups and downs.. and for me, i do not wan to let anyone see tt i'm not ok.. unless they can tell by lookin at my shoho jisho la.. den i got nth to say.. haha.. well.. for me, i nv wan my members or my comrades to worry about me lor.. and unless i know tt the person truly know and understand me & i'll share.. this is wat i feel about being a trustworthy leader.. sensei once said.. to see whether the members trust tt leader, it can be seen during a Q&A session. whether members feel at ease to seek guidance or do not really trust the leader, it is very clear.. well.. i do not say tt i'm a good leader.. still tryin hard to be one.. and tryin hard to be a nice member as well.. :P
during morning gongyo today, we had the priviledge to watch a video on Mr & Mrs Ikeda.. it was on how Mrs Ikeda supported Mr Ikeda ever since they were together and even on frewuent trips to overseas... really touched by both our great mentors in life.. sensei describe Mrs Ikeda as his "wife, sister, nurse".. this kind of bond between couple s really rare nowadays i guess.. because sensei was veri weak and also vulnerable to the different climates, food and culture overseas, he easily fell ill.. thus, Mrs Ikeda took pains to make sure he was ok.. for those who have read HR/NHR will know how Mrs Ikeda took care of sensei.. and also Mrs Ikeda mentioned tt Toda sensei saying :"i will hand Dai to you" before he pass away and Mrs Ikeda took those words as her personal mission.. and also when Mr Ikeda took position as the 3rd president of Soka Gakkai, he returned home on tt day to find tt Mrs Ikeda only cooked red bean rice and she even say tt it was the funeral of the "Ikeda's family." this was because she knew of the physical turmoil Mr Ikeda is going thru and thus wan to put his mind at ease by letting him devote 100% to kosen-rufu and "the family and the household will be taken charge by me" she said.. i was deeply touched.. and the video also showed tt during the 62nd HQ ldrs mtg, Mrs Ikeda was awarded an hononary award.. (forgot which country) but it represents tt Mrs Ikeda was given the same recognition as Mr Ikeda for her contribution.. and many many things tt i cant list out here but i'll always rem the video de.. i know its silly but i actually cried!! sigh.. it was so gan dong ya.. i quietly pledge tt i muz also be like Mrs Ikeda.. finding the Mr Ikeda in my life.. =D Mrs Ikeda was a very strong woman.. i shall be strong too!! hope all the YWDs always take Mrs Ikeda as a model and pls always carry this smile wherever u go and all the YMDs to protect and watch over the YWDs... :)
*Gan Dong de wEiLi :')