hai.. today late for sch again.. so sad.. woke up at 8.45.. wondering y i always laidat.. before i got out of the house den rem today got visitor.. so cant wear slipper.. hai.. think my lab tech muz be vEri sad & angry.. muz jia you le.. cannot let this vicious cycle go on..

i'm not ready for the youth camp.. how?!?! nv chant enough.. nv buy my things yet.. haven homevisit my members.. ytd NYP CIC mtg.. feel tt i've deprove.. no improve means regress.. really respect suman for her compassion and courage to do shakubuku.. though i'm so called her senior in faith.. but i think i still haven wake up yet..

i think i know why my progress is so slow, or rather, decreasing.. because i feel tt i've not show any actual proof and also of my family.. anyway, i've registered for personal guidance.. wanna breakthru for the youth camp..

wat raymond share really woke me up.. he asked us :"each time sensei wan to visit the place what will the members do?" although i've read till the 3rd volumn of HR, i couldn't answer.. the answer was:"to decorate the place and scored victory den invite sensei to give encouragement and talk to the members." in Gakkai, it is different from army where soldiers will train den go for war.. we score victory first den go for training..

i muz feel for my members.. "renew ur determination day after day, month after month. If you slacken even a bit, devils will take advantage."

Cheers!! (^-*)
**i'm still happy...