its monday!


before you proceed, note: this post is a lil random. you might not understand what im trying to say because even i do not understand.


bookfair duty @ SSA HQ finally over.. past few days were so exhausted. slept earliest 1am on the average. the comm came tgt on wed and thurs to check the goods and last stock check. then set up on thurs night and duty on fri - sun. (i was one of those who went three days.)


the response in general wasnt very good. was it because the crowd swarmed to sitex? hahaha.. for our side, out of 3 souvenirs that we came out, 2 were sold out completely, 1 of them by the first day. we didnt set a huge quantity and i think the members helped us by spreading the word to the rest. well, very happy that we're receiving feedbacks for the creative and innovative idea. :D i wasnt part of the actual designing process but really learnt and see alot during the process.


this duty brings back memories.. of the times doing sales along orchard road and also when i was still a younger ywd helping out in the organisation.. maybe this was an answer to my prayer to 'go back to my initial starting point'.. the actions and thoughts and dialogues with some senior leaders also make me think again about the view some people have on SL. the SL that i encountered are doing what is called 'doing the Buddha's work'. protecting the members and organisation is the most impt. i guess i became a coward when things grew tough and was also not wise enough to see clearly. i also saw that everyone's character and thinking is different but being able to work together, tolerating, coordinating with one another makes me really think deeper and even more to want to be myself so that i can manifest the most and achieve my HR. i am who i am. for many things i may not explain but if u truly understand me, you will know why i did this or did that. wow.. this is like an expedition trip man.. and here i am writing a review of the trip.


and have been thinking alot, though i hasnt been doing alot. :P


have u watched twilight? i didnt catch the first one before. was quite disappointing for me. there was this ending that wasnt considered an ending because it'll definitely lead to a 3rd show.


after so many years in the Gakkai, i wondered if i've grown compared to the past. or am i still the same? no longer want to compare myself with anyone. i just want to be like the old me who always remembers Toda sensei's words to Shin'ichi to "build the kind of Gakkai that you want to see". Right now, there are just too many things for me to cope but the best way is to do it one by one. Else i'll always be doing the same things. Like usual, i need to chant to expand my life. to read alot, share alot and chant alot. (adapted from Carebears. :D)


i've met a friend who have ideals very similar to our Buddhism. although he believes in something else but i'll do my best to learn and share with him. thats why i have to jia you. to show actual proof so that i will be a positive demonstration. :D


It takes courage to become happy -- courage to remain true to one's convictions, courage not to be defeated by one's weaknesses and negativity, courage to take swift action to help those who are suffering.


and i realised.
late night makes you fat. :(